Rick Harrison is still grieving his son Adam’s death one year later.
In a new episode of “In Depth With Graham Bensinger,” the “Pawn Stars” lead, 59, spoke about his son who died of a drug overdose at the age of 39 in January 2024, and said he hasn’t stopped thinking about the “what if” scenarios of the tragedy.
“I think about him every day,” said Harrison. “In his 20s, he had drug problems. I mean, God, I put him in rehab so many times and every time he’d be doing great, and then he would just fall back.”
Harrison, who shared Adam with his first wife, Kim, explained that Adam’s addiction “got really, really bad” leading up to his fatal fentanyl overdose.
“The thing is, when you lose a kid, you second guess f – – king everything,” the History Channel star shared.
“It’s like, ‘Could I have done this? Could I have done this? Could I have done this? Could I have done this?’ And it’s like it goes through your brain constantly. There’s not a day I don’t [think] about him.”
“I mean, I think I did everything right,” Harrison continued. “You just sit in your head, ‘What if I did this? What if I did this?’ You know what I mean? What if I just grabbed him, f – – king locked him in the back of my truck, drove him to Oregon and put him over to where he couldn’t get [drugs]?”
He added, “I mean, you have a hundred things go through your mind. There is nothing worse than losing a kid.”
Harrison also recalled the time that Adam broke into his house.
“I figured maybe if we put him in jail for two months it’ll clean him out, but he just went straight back on it,” Harrison said. “You try to give him tough love but, God, you just never see the OD coming. You want to give them tough love and everything but I never thought that would happen.”
“It’s hard,” Harrison admitted, adding, “There’s no instruction book with kids. They’re all different models.”
In the wake of Adam’s death, Harrison said that he’s learned to “appreciate what you got,” which for him includes his two other sons, Jake and Corey, and his four grandchildren.
“I spend as much time with my kids as I can. I talk to all my kids on the phone almost every day. I love my kids, love my grandkids,” he shared. “You enjoy life. I mean, I literally know guys that’ve got 10 times as much money as me, and I do all right, that are miserable.”
Harrison continued, “It is easy to enjoy life. It really is. Just don’t be around the people that are miserable and just enjoy life with your family and your friends and everything. It’s not that hard to be happy.”
The reality star confirmed his son’s death from fentanyl overdose in Las Vegas last year in a statement to The Post.
“Yes, I can confirm Adam died from a fentanyl overdose,” Harrison said at the time. “The fentanyl crisis in this country must be taken more seriously,” he added. “It seems it is just flowing over the borders and nothing is being done about it. We must do better.”
Harrison later broke his silence on Adam’s death via Instagram with a photo of himself smiling alongside his son in a bar.
“You will always be in my heart!” Harrison wrote. “I love you, Adam.”
